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  “Hang on! I’ve got you! I’ve got you!”

  Patrick felt the swells lose some of their power as he pulled Ted into deeper water. Then Ted dropped the rope and tightened up the drag on the reel to better fight the fish. Patrick yelled to pick up the damn rope. Ted began to sink and a strong swell dragged him back toward the rocks until he took up the rope again. He was gasping deep and fast while Patrick pulled. A long minute later Ted was close to Fatta the Lan’, holding out the rod to his brother. Patrick took it and felt the heavy pull of the faraway fish. “Jeez, Ted, nice fish.”

  “I told you. I’m thinking snapper. Rocks. Deep.”

  “Me, too. Can you hold on? I’m going to back us out of here so we can get you aboard without the surge.”

  “Amen, Pat!”

  “Feels like ten pounds of fish down there.”

  “Oh, at least.”

  “Hang on, I’m going to weigh anchor and get us out of here.”

  “I hope it’s a snapper! Mom’s favorite.”

  “Just hold on, Ted.”

  “Dad shouldn’t of yelled at me for taking the bark off the trees. That was a mistake anybody could make.”

  “It’s over.”

  “It’s never over! I scared a woman out by the stables a couple a nights ago. Dora. I like her a lot. I feel everything she feels, like a connection. I didn’t mean to scare her.”

  Patrick reversed them further offshore, steering with his hips, one hand on the rope and the other on the rod. The fish had taken half of the backing but it was losing strength. When he felt less turbulence he put the motor in neutral. He drew Ted close and cut the engine and pulled his brother around to the stern where the gunwales were lowest. Ted was able to get both hands up onto the boat railings but he was too tired and too heavy to hoist himself up and over.

  Patrick let go the rope and pulled on Ted’s jacket and felt his brother’s legs pumping and his feet flailing against the hull. Ted panted with this exertion and Patrick put his shoulder down and latched his free arm around Ted’s big neck and pulled. He felt Ted’s heavy exhales on his skin and he crouched for lifting power. There was a moment he thought he might go over, rather than Ted come in, but then Patrick felt his brother’s legs stop moving and a sudden lightness to him. Patrick pulled with all his strength and Ted came up. Patrick slipped and hit his butt hard as Ted surged in and flattened him. They screamed and cursed, fighting for breath, Patrick with the broken butt of the rod still up and the line tight to the fish, Ted crushing the breath out of him. Patrick was weak with suffocation and laughter by the time they got unraveled.

  It took Ted another twenty minutes to get the fish in, a bruising red snapper from the rocky depths, twelve and a half pounds according to the Boga Grip that Patrick deployed from his tackle box. Patrick took a dozen pictures of Ted and the fish. Both men were still breathing hard when Patrick pushed the camera back into his shirt pocket and buttoned it.

  “We gotta take this home for dinner,” said Ted.

  “I’d say so.”

  “You’ll make a good guide, Pat. Maybe I could be your first mate.”

  Patrick muscled the spent fish into the cooler in the hold and closed the lid. He had put in a block of ice just in case. Patrick loved being prepared for things, as he was in Sangin, twenty-four hours a day, even on the burn shitter, even in his sleep. “I’d like that.”

  “You don’t need a mate on this little boat, though.”

  “I’ll have bigger ones someday.”

  “I’d probably screw up.”

  “No, you wouldn’t, brother. Look at that fish.”

  “Okay, Pat—you and me on a boat, fishing and making money and having fun. Now I got something to look forward to. I’m cold.”

  “Get that jacket and shirt off.”

  Patrick worked off his jacket and handed it to Ted then started up the Mercury. “Hold on, big brother.”

  The sun hung orange in the west as they rode back to the ramp. Ted sat on the aft bench and every time Patrick looked back he was shivering in the too small jacket but still chattering away. Patrick was used to him not speaking for days or weeks, then unleashing a river of words, and now the river came.

  “But you know, Pat, there’s this other woman who’s a mystery and I really like her, too. Lucinda. She called Friendly Village Taxi like over two weeks ago and I got her. And she’s called other times—either Tuesdays and Thursdays. We’ve gone to the market, the pharmacy, the dry cleaner, Joe’s Hardware, and either Las Brisas or Rosa’s for takeout. She doesn’t hardly talk. Doesn’t take her sunglasses off, so maybe she’s hiding something. I think she’s troubled. I feel it but I’m not sure what it is. She lives in a condo with flowers on the balcony. She’s very pretty and healthy-looking but really unhappy. She has great sadness. I’m driving tomorrow just in case she calls. I can’t take much more of Dad. And I know he can’t take much more of me. I wonder if Mom will do that snapper Veracruz style.”

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  Under a gray-bellied sky Evelyn Anders began her walk from the post office on Mission Road toward the largest shopping center in Fallbrook. She took long strides and counted each one. It was six on a Tuesday evening and the traffic was steady and swift. She paused to look at the burn marks left by the flares that had marked the place where George Hernandez was killed three weeks ago—right there in the first southbound lane—carbon-gray flowers scorched into the asphalt. She thought she saw a bloodstain, too. Was that even possible? Oil, she thought, surely. Or transmission fluid.

  It was downhill in this direction and ahead she saw the proud retailers of the republic: the KFC bucket in the sky, Albertson’s and Blockbuster and Baskin-Robbins, Verizon and AT&T, Taco Bell and Carl’s Jr. and Payless Shoes. And so on. She was long resigned to franchise America here in Fallbrook, and often patronized some of these places just like everyone else. But her heart stayed in the older part of town, back on Main with history and art galleries and public sculpture and most things mom-and-pop, such as Anders Wealth Management. And I’m the mom, she thought, class of ’85 to Mom in the blink of an eye.

  After step one hundred and fifty-five she stopped and looked back. She was about halfway to the shopping center, and sure enough, not twenty feet from where George had been killed, a young woman with a stroller and two very young children waited, ready to cross. Another mom, thought Evelyn. The woman was already off the curb and onto the asphalt of Mission Road, waiting to run for the relative safety of the median strip. Her hair lifted each time a car sped by.

  Evelyn watched her take two little hands in one of her own, grab the stroller handle midway, and push off. The hole in the northbound traffic looked good. The woman locked her stroller arm and bent her back and dug in with her legs. The children hustled along tethered and unafraid. The woman’s face was steadfast at the approaching cars and her hair stood out behind her. The stroller bounced along and Evelyn pictured a tire coming off but before it could happen the woman was standing in the safe zone, cars roaring by on either side. The problem with this median Evelyn knew, was that it was also a turn lane, so you never knew when a harried driver might swing in. Rushed drivers were looking for cars in front of them, not people. Evelyn saw that a lighted crosswalk right there, activated only when someone needed to use it, could save a life.

  She continued her way downhill to the next safe place to cross, which was the traffic signal way down at Ammunition. She had had no idea how far it was between crosswalks until walking the distance herself. Looking back toward the post office where she’d started—what?—a half a mile?

  She waited out the light then crossed. She dashed across the wide entrance-exit of the Happy Jug Liquor store—WE SELL LIVE BAIT!—then started up the sidewalk for the climb back up Mission. All of this to get to the trailer park where George had lived, and to where he was returning, in the dark, on the night he died.

  Evelyn waved to Iris Cash, waiting at the entrance to the Meadowlark trailer park as planned. With her were
George Hernandez’s two young friends, McKenzie and Dulce, who had contacted Cruzela Storm about the show to benefit the crosswalks. Evelyn shook their small hands, then Iris introduced her to photographer Natalie Llanes, who had a nice Canon DSLR slung around her neck. Iris and Natalie positioned the girls for a photograph with the battered Meadowlark sign in the background. Evelyn stood back and watched the two girls smile momentarily, then catch themselves.

  Looking past them Evelyn realized she’d never set foot in Meadowlark, though she’d driven by it thousands of times, as had anybody who lived in Fallbrook for long. It was right in the center of town but because it sat in the low creek bed, Meadowlark was easy to miss if you were in a car. She looked at the closely spaced trailers, many colorfully painted, some stout and some slouching. Eucalyptus and palms grew high amid them, and the trailer awnings hung heavy with mandevilla and nightshade and jasmine. Satellite dishes stood on nearly every roof, sometimes two or three of them, old models as big as flying saucers and newer ones small and sleek.

  Iris waved Evelyn over to pose with McKenzie and Dulce under the Meadowlark sign. Natalie wanted the pretty evening sky as a backdrop. The girls had obviously dressed for this and Evelyn sensed their nervousness. McKenzie wore a dress and Dulce a hint of rouge. Their black hair shone even on the gray day. They were twelve. Natalie, the photographer, chattered away with them in Spanish.

  Evelyn brushed a fallen flower petal from the hair on McKenzie’s shoulder. “I spent some extra time on myself too, girls. A good Village View photo one week from the election can’t hurt.”

  “You’ll win,” said McKenzie.

  “Absolutely,” said Dulce.

  Evelyn wondered about that, given the wildfire that had occurred on her watch, the arsonist lurking unchecked, her defeat on the crosswalk issue, and the rife public anger at government incumbents in general. Next week’s Cruzela Storm fund-raiser could be a factor with the undecided. She wondered if she needed to nail up another fifty THIS TOWN IS YOUR TOWN—RE-ELECT EVELYN ANDERS FOR MAYOR signs before election day. Her opponent, Walt Rood, with his pleasant face and SMALL GOVERNMENT THAT WORKS posters, seemed to be watching her from everywhere she looked. Natalie fired away.

  “Can we shoot a few in front of one of your houses?” asked Iris.

  Evelyn saw the girls glance at each other but neither spoke for a moment. Dulce looked down at the patch of brown grass under the Meadowlark sign and McKenzie looked back at the trailers as if she’d heard someone call to her. “They’re trailers,” she said.

  “Trailers are homes, too,” said Iris.

  The girls looked at each other again and Dulce shrugged. “Okay.”

  Evelyn followed them in. The road had been paved years back but had crumbled away to half-paved. She wondered why the city hadn’t maintained it—privately owned, probably. The creek ran through in a trough of cattails and she noted the dank wet smell of it. She heard Mexican music and television voices and smelled food cooking. A boy sped by on a bike and rattled off something in Spanish to the girls. Evelyn was surprised how subterranean and out of sight she felt down here. Just a few yards away, but high above, SUVs and luxury sedans and snappy hybrids sped up and down Mission, the drivers—if they were anything like her—largely unaware of the hidden world below.

  “It’s called the cans,” said McKenzie. “Because of all the metal and aluminum. Las latas. As in, vivo en las latas—I live in the cans.”

  “That’s funny but not funny,” said Evelyn.

  The girls self-consciously glanced at each other again, then continued walking past trailers of many colors—lime green, tangerine, yellow, and pink. They were crowded tight but most had tiny gardens out front or decks. Many of the decks had sides and roofs made of trellises, shot through with vines. Evelyn could smell the blossoms, faintly, mixed in with the aroma of the fast-food places above them on Mission. Most of the decks had patio chairs or old couches and lavish potted plants and flowers. McKenzie stopped in front of a slouching sky-blue coach with a rainbow and puffy white clouds painted on it. “George’s house.”

  Evelyn heard thumping sounds inside and a moment later three children spilled from the blue trailer to the deck. She guessed the oldest, a boy, at about McKenzie’s and Dulce’s age, and the two girls were younger than George had been. They smiled when they saw Iris, who climbed the wooden stairs yapping and herding them into place, then stepped back out of range. Natalie aimed her camera up at them. The boy stood straight, chest out and chin up, giving McKenzie, then Dulce, his hard look.

  “Felix is the boss until his parents get home from work,” said McKenzie. “He makes his sisters do their homework and keeps them from fighting over the TV.”

  Iris turned. “Come on up here, Evelyn. We need all of the crosswalk crew.”

  After the photo shoot Evelyn said goodbye to the girls and declined a ride to her car from Iris and Natalie. Instead she walked alone through las latas, filling her eyes with this secret barrio she’d hardly even noticed before today. A gaggle of children ran among the trailers, yelling and laughing while grown-up voices chased through the windows after them. She heard a TV in English and another in Spanish. She followed the road around to where the creek widened into a pool under a bridge, the water shiny and smooth. There was a rough-hewn bench and table on the bank, wrappers and cans and plastic bottles collecting at the downstream outlet. The couple sitting close on the bench looked back at her, the boy large with pomaded hair and the pretty girl wearing a hot little outfit. They had take-out bags and looked happy. She gave a sorry-to-bother-you wave and they turned back to the water. Around the next bend in the threadbare road she saw a woman standing on her front patio between two large picnic tables stacked with laundry, folded, labeled, and ready for pickup. A washer and a dryer labored outside the trailer. Evelyn smelled the laundry breath of the dryer and the scent of KFC wafting in from above, where the power lines sagged heavily and the violet bracts of a bougainvillea overgrowing an old satellite dish reached skyward, vibrant with color, hungry for the fading sunlight.

  * * *

  She walked back up Mission toward her car. The climb was steep, even in mild weather and casual shoes. She stopped across from where George had been hit near the post office, which is where she’d parked her car. Then Evelyn got a sudden idea, and stepped off the curb.

  It was nearly seven and almost dark now and to her left headlights charged uphill toward her while on her right brake lights snaked downhill in the far lanes. The median lay between. Waiting for an opening, she glanced down at the trees and rooftops of las latas. At forty-six, Evelyn was nearsighted but hadn’t seen a doctor because most of her work was up close, and because she could practically drive the streets of Fallbrook in her sleep. When they left town at night, Brian did the driving. So as she looked into the oncoming traffic she saw headlights and cars and the spaces between them, but to judge their speed and threat level was difficult. Cars were just way faster when you weren’t in one. She thought of her old tennis injury, the torn ACL in her knee, and how an ill-timed twist could put her on the ground with a bullet of pain.

  She chose her moment and took her first step. She planned to take the near lane when the last car in a knot of five or six was safely past. When it whizzed by she accelerated into the lane, accelerated somewhat, she found, suddenly worried about her knee. She was almost to the next lane when a pickup truck burned rubber from one of the many driveways that lined the other side of Mission, turning left against the traffic. The truck jumped and the tires screamed as it peeled across lanes for the median to which Evelyn had committed herself. The speed of the truck seemed to nullify her own; she was in less than slow motion now, even though she had run cross-country at Fallbrook High School just a few short years ago. No, she realized, a few long years ago—long, long, long years ago! She calculated that the truck would kill her in the median in mere seconds unless she stopped right here and let it go by first, which would also mean certain death by another vehicle. She saw th
e onrushing constellation of headlights coming up Mission toward her and she knew those drivers were looking into headlights coming at them, and a pedestrian was practically invisible until too late. She lifted her knees and lengthened her stride, cutting across lane two at a perilous angle, trying to cut behind the truck.

  Suddenly the world synchronized: the pickup truck blew into the median right in front of her, the driver’s eyes wide with surprise; the closest of the uphill cars swerved into the next lane to miss her; tires squealed and horns blasted and somehow that car skidded, screeching sideways across the far lane and the narrow shoulder, jumped the curb, and came to a stop blocking the sidewalk.

  Evelyn, aware of all this and of nothing else, stood panting in the median. The pickup truck stopped not twenty feet from her and the emergency flashers went on and the door flew open. Down from the cab came a stocky blond woman in jeans and a plaid flannel shirt. She crunched across the median dirt and gravel and took Evelyn by the arm. “Are you okay?”

  “Halfway there!” She sounded daft even to herself.

  “I couldn’t see you. I’m so sorry. Let’s get you outta here.”

  “Ready when you are.” Evelyn watched the downhill cars slow for the flashing truck lights. Two of the drivers stopped and Evelyn, released by the woman, crossed the lanes and stepped onto the sidewalk. She turned to see the southbound drivers allowing the woman in the pickup truck back into the lanes, the flashers going off, and the truck pulling away.

  * * *

  Still trembling she called Brian from her car in the post office parking lot. He heard her fear immediately. She explained what happened in a detached voice, her adrenaline-moderated panic only now free to bust loose. Brian was the calmest and most capable man she knew, her rock and anchor. Evelyn felt as if she hadn’t seen him in weeks, maybe years. Had she? Really seen? He said he would be there in two minutes to bring her home.